still so hard

why is it still so hard...

 after all this time...

and after losing all this weight...

why is it so hard to not eat junk food?

you'd think it would be second nature by now,

that i would have lost my craving

or something...

that it would have gotten easier.

but no.

it's still

SO

VERY

VERY

hard.

yeah...i was bad today.

after my run this morning,

the kids wanted donuts...

so i had one...

you know..carbo-load after my run..

high glycemic carbs to replace my lost glycogen :P

then i had some fruit, an apple & a banana

then i had a bowl of honey-nut cheerios,

a piece of ham...

lots of water,

and because we worked around the house all day,

and i didn't feel like cooking,

we went to mcdonalds for dinner.

yep...i ate mcdonalds.

i can't believe it.

its been months since i've had mcdonalds.

(the fries tasted SO good though :)

well...that is my confession.

and it seems like once i start eating the junk

it's really hard to stop.

i will be back on the wagon tomorrow.

and because tmr is a rest day...

so no running...

i had an idea.

my strategy...

everytime i walk into the kitchen

and open the cabinets or refridge...

i will guzzle some water and

do 10 push-ups.

maybe that will stop me :)

long run this morning.

16.09mi/ 2:36:11/ avgHR 151/ avg pace 9:42

43.98mi this past week

1173.51mi YTD

only 32 miles planned this week.

i need to keep busy.